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`How am I to say anything so suddenly? I really don't know.'
`No, tell me all the same.... You see my life. But you mustn't forget that you're seeing us in the summer, when you have come to us and we are not alone.... But we came here early in the spring, lived quite alone, and shall be alone again, and I desire nothing better. But imagine me living alone without him, alone, and that will be... I see by everything that it will often be repeated, that he will be half the time away from home,' she said, getting up and sitting down close by Dolly. `Of course,' she interrupted Dolly, who would have answered, `of course I won't try to keep him by force. I don't keep him indeed. The races are just coming, his horses are running, he will go. I'm very glad. But think of me, fancy my position.... But what's the use of talking about it!' She smiled. `Well, what did he talk about with you?'
`He spoke of what I want to speak about myself, and it's easy for me to be his advocate; of whether there is not a possibility... whether you could not...' (Darya Alexandrovna hesitated) `correct, or improve your position.... You know how I look at it... But all the same, if possible, you should get married....'
`He said that he was unhappy on your account and his own. Perhaps you will say that it's egoism, but what a legitimate and noble egoism. He wants first of all to legitimize his daughter, and to be your husband, to have a legal right to you.'
`What wife, what slave can be so utterly a slave as I, in my position?' she put in gloomily.
`The chief thing he desires... he desires that you should not suffer.'
`That's impossible. Well?'
`Well, and the most legitimate desire - he wishes that your children should have a name.'
`What children?' Anna said, not looking at Dolly, and half closing her eyes.
`Annie and those to come...'
`He need not trouble on that score; I shall have no more children.'
`How can you tell that you won't?'
`I shall not, because I don't wish it.' And, in spite of all her emotion, Anna smiled, as she caught the na?ve expression of curiosity, wonder, and horror on Dolly's face.
`The doctor told me after my illness...'
`Impossible!' said Dolly, opening her eyes wide. For here this was one of those discoveries the consequences and deductions from which are so immense that all that one feels for the first instant is that it is impossible to take it all in, and that one will have to reflect a great, great deal upon it.
This discovery, suddenly throwing light on all those families of one or two children, which had hitherto been so incomprehensible to her, aroused so many ideas, reflections, and contradictory emotions, that she had nothing to say, and simply gazed with wide-open eyes of wonder at Anna. This was the very thing she had been dreaming of, but now learning that it was possible, she was horrified. She felt that it was too simple a solution of too complicated a problem.
`N'est-ce pas immoral?' was all she said, after a brief pause.
`Why so? Think - I have a choice between two alternatives: either to be with child, that is an invalid, or to be the friend and companion of my husband - practically my husband,' Anna said in a tone intentionally superficial and frivolous.
`Yes, yes,' said Darya Alexandrovna, hearing the very arguments she had used to herself, and not finding the same force in them as before.
`For you, for other people,' said Anna, as though divining her thoughts, `there may be reason to hesitate; but for me... You must consider - I am not his wife; he loves me as long as he loves me. And how am I to keep his love? Not like this!'
She moved her white hands in a curve before her waist.
With extraordinary rapidity, as happens during moments of excitement, ideas and memories rushed into Darya Alexandrovna's head. `I,' she thought, `did not keep my attraction for Stiva; he left me for others, and the first woman for whom he betrayed me did not keep him by being always pretty and lively. He deserted her and took another. And can Anna attract and keep Count Vronsky in that way? If that is what he looks for, he will find dresses and manners still more attractive and charming. And, however white and beautiful her bare arms are, however beautiful her full figure and her eager face under her black curls, he will find something better still, just as my disgusting, pitiful, and charming husband does.'
Dolly made no answer, she merely sighed. Anna noticed this sigh, indicating dissent, and she went on. In her armory she had other arguments so strong that no answer could be made to them.
`Do you say that it's not right? But you must consider,' she went on; `you forget my position. How can I desire children? I'm not speaking of the suffering - I'm not afraid of that. Think, only - what are my children to be? Ill-fated children, who will have to bear a stranger's name. For the very fact of their birth they will be forced to be ashamed of their mother, their father, their birth.'
`But that is just why a divorce is necessary.'
But Anna did not hear her. She longed to give utterance to all the arguments with which she had so many times convinced herself.
`What is reason given me for, if I am not to use it to avoid bringing unhappy beings into the world!'
She looked at Dolly, but without waiting for a reply she went on:
`I should always feel I had wronged these unhappy children,' she said. `If there are none, at any rate they are not unhappy; while if they are unhappy, I alone should be to blame for it.'
These were the very arguments Darya Alexandrovna had used in her own reflections; but she heard them now without understanding them. `How can one wrong creatures that don't exist?' she thought. And all at once the idea struck her. Could it possibly, under any circumstances, have been better for her favorite Grisha if he had never existed? And this seemed to her so wild, so strange, that she shook her head to drive away this tangle of whirling, mad ideas.
`No, I don't know; it's not right,' was all she said, with an expression of disgust on her face.
`Yes, but you mustn't forget what you are and what I am.... And besides that,' added Anna, in spite of the wealth of her arguments and the poverty of Dolly's objections, seeming still to admit that it was not right, `don't forget the chief point, that I am not now in the same position as you. For you the question is: Do you desire not to have any more children? While for me it is: Do I desire to have them? And that's a great difference. You must see that I can't desire them in my position.'
Darya Alexandrovna made no reply. She suddenly felt that she had got away from Anna so far, that there lay between them a barrier of questions on which they could never agree, and about which it was better not to speak.
? Leo Tolstoy